Author’s note : The song is “unwell” by matchbox twenty.

“The problem with you is you’re a pigheaded fool.”

“The problem with you is you’re a stubborn, self-centered ego-maniac!” Tom screamed furiously at his father.

“I’m sorry to hear you say that Lieutenant.”

Startled Tom whirled, there stood Chakotay. Damn that man, he moved so quietly. Tom hadn’t heard him come up behind him.

“C-commander.”

ALL DAY
STARING AT THE CEILING MAKING
FRIENDS WITH SHADOWS ON MY WALL
ALL NIGHT
I'M HEARING VOICES TELLING ME
THAT I SHOULD GET SOME SLEEP
BECAUSE TOMORROW MIGHT BE GOOD
FOR SOMETHING

Chakotay held his hand up to forestall further comment from the Lieutenant. “Let me guess, you weren’t talking to me?” Tom looked down, silent. “Tom,” Chakotay said gently, I wish you would tell me what’s wrong.”

Tom shrugged, still intent on studying his shoes.

HOLD ON
I'M FEELING LIKE I'M HEADED FOR A
BREAKDOWN
I DON'T KNOW WHY

Chakotay sighed, “Look, I know I’m not on your top ten list for people to spend time with. But the Captain decided I was going to be your councilor. And I’m trying.” Then his temper seemed to run out. “But I can’t do anything if you don’t speak to me!”

Tom smiled mockingly, “What can I say Commander? I’m just not the sharing type.”

I'M NOT CRAZY I'M JUST A LITTLE UNWELL
I KNOW RIGHT NOW YOU CAN'T TELL
BUT STAY AWHILE AND MAYBE THEN YOU'LL SEE
A DIFFERENT SIDE OF ME

“What is it Paris? What’s messing up your perfect world?” Now his voice was mocking, “What upset the Brat of Voyager?”

I'M NOT CRAZY I'M JUST A LITTLE IMPAIRED
I KNOW RIGHT NOW YOU DON'T CARE
BUT SOON ENOUGH YOU'RE GONNA THINK OF ME
AND HOW I USED TO BE

“Don’t you dare!” Tom shouted at Ares, who was about to do something to Chakotay, Tom could tell, he had that look in his eyes. He whirled on the commander. “I’ll tell you what’s wrong with me. No one will leave me the fuck alone. I don’t want to follow in his fucking footsteps! I just want to be left alone!”

SEE ME
TALKING TO MYSELF IN PUBLIC
AND DODGING GLANCES ON THE TRAIN
I KNOW
I KNOW THEY'VE ALL BEEN TALKING 'BOUT ME
I CAN HEAR THEM WHISPER
AND IT MAKES ME THINK THERE MUST BE SOMETHING WRONG
WITH ME

“Who’s footsteps? Your father’s?” But Tom ignored him, runnning into the bedroom and throwing himself on the bed. Ordering the door closed behind him.

OUT OF ALL THE HOURS THINKING
SOMEHOW
I'VE LOST MY MIND

Chakotay tried to open the door and found himself locked out. “Tom let me in.” He didn’t want to overide the lock. That would not get Tom talking

I'M NOT CRAZY I'M JUST A LITTLE UNWELL
I KNOW RIGHT NOW YOU CAN'T TELL
BUT STAY AWHILE AND MAYBE THEN YOU'LL SEE
A DIFFERENT SIDE OF ME

“Leave me alone.”

“Tom be reasonable. I just want to help you.” Tom’s answer was a mirthless laugh.

I'M NOT CRAZY I'M JUST A LITTLE IMPAIRED
I KNOW RIGHT NOW YOU DON'T CAREBUT SOON ENOUGH YOU'RE GONNA THINK OF ME
AND HOW I USED TO BE

Ares watched his son sob brokenly into the pillow, unaware of his presense, and murmered, “Aphrodite, you have a twisted sense of humor.”

TALKING IN MY SLEEP
PRETTY SOON THEY'LL COME TO GET ME
THEY'LL BE TAKING ME AWAY

Chapter 3